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Anchors Aweigh – Or How a Prank Taught Me About Being Human

The assignment was to write and deliver a motivational speech. 

It was a standard part of the leadership training. It seemed like kind of a hokey and contrived assignment. 

We wondered if we could make it better.

We were a group of medical students, dental students, nurses and law students. We were in our “Officer’s Indoctrination School” (OIS) for the United States Navy. This was a 6-week training course that was designed to take us from being civilians to being officers in the U.S. Navy. We learned how to march and salute. We learned how to wear our uniforms. We learned about the customs and regulations of the Navy. 

We also learned a lot about leadership. I didn’t realize it then, but it molded a lot of who I am today.

During the training I made good friends. Perhaps it was the stress of staying up all night running floor buffers to wax and polish the floors. Or prepping for the inspections using a toothbrush to scrub the cracks on the floor. Or in using Q-tips to clean the windowsills. Or choosing to not sleep in your bed because you might wrinkle the perfectly made bed with its tightly ironed hospital corners. But in any event, we had become good friends.

We were talking about the assignment together. How could we truly deliver a motivational speech? One of us came up with a silly idea. It was risky. We could get in trouble. But the more we talked about it, the more we liked it. We thought it would be worth the risk.

The class time came, and we were all ready. 

One of my friends got up to give his speech. As he got near the climax of his speech, we perfectly executed our plan. It started out with just a very low-level humming. Then it grew. 

Ever so slightly louder. 

And then a little bit louder. 

And then it was clear what was happening. 

A group of us in the class were humming, “Anchor’s Aweigh!” 

The humming got so that we were filling the room with sound and then we let it all go. We jumped to our feet and began singing at the top of our lungs, 

“Anchors Aweigh, my boys, Anchors Aweigh. Farewell to college joys, we sail at break of day-ay-ay-ay. Through our last night on shore, drink to the foam, Until we meet once more. Here’s wishing you a happy voyage home.”

It was risky.

We could have gotten in a lot of trouble.

We looked at our Lieutenant Commander instructor to see if we were going to have to pay a penalty for our little prank. 

She had tears streaming down her face. 

They were not tears of sadness. They were not tears of laughter. 

Then we understood. And the joke was on us. In that moment we all learned a lesson. 

That was the day that I became a part of the United States Navy.

Suddenly I was filled with immense pride and a sense of belonging. I understood the deep traditions of the Navy. I felt linked to the many men and women who had so bravely fought and risked everything to be a part of the Navy. In an instant I understood what it meant to be committed to something bigger than myself.I understood how hearing just a song could trigger deep emotions of pride and respect and belonging. I had tears in the corners of my eyes. And I was now an officer in the United States Navy.

I have been a member of the Navy in my heart ever since that day. I have been so proud of my uniform. Even though this incident happened in May of 1988 and I left active duty in the Navy in June of 1996, I am still Navy. My uniforms are still hung in my closet. I looked at them the other day and I had no intention of moving them. 

It distressed me a couple of years ago when I realized I was likely too old to ever go back on active duty again. In the back of my head had always been this little thought that if ever I got “tired of it all” I might go back in the Navy. But time has marched on and that no longer seems possible. But I am still Navy. 

I heard them singing the “Navy Hymn” for Bush 41’s funeral this fall. It got me a little bit choked up and nostalgic again. That is the song of “my Navy”. I got to serve in the same Navy in which George Bush risked his life in World War II and which molded him into who he was.

What does all of this matter to you?

For those of you who were in the military I suspect it rings true. There is such a strong sense of identity that never seems to leave. There is a link to the generations of men and women who committed themselves to something greater than themselves. The link is to many who have died in the service. There is a link to many who experienced things that I never want to experience. There is a link to tradition and honor and leadership.

For those of you who have never served in the military, the lesson is clear.

There is great value in committing yourself to something bigger than yourself. 

If all you ever do in life is to think about and to live for yourself, you have not achieved very much. You are but one life and your concerns and desires are a small thing. But we were meant to and we were designed to be a part of things bigger than ourselves. 

That is another part of what it means to be human. 

We are not just living a life here of survival on this earth. We are not just going to go through our days surviving and then die. We were meant to build and create and grow. And by working together we can do so much more than we ever could alone.

We were meant to dream big and to build big. What is there that you care about? Is there something that you are willing to invest yourself in? Is there something that is more important than just your own needs and desires? What is there that is worth living for?

Maya Angelou said, “My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.”

We were meant to create. We were meant to build. We were meant to stand up against injustice and evil. We were meant to band together for what is good and right. And in doing that we find purpose and meaning and honor and joy. 

Thatis something that can make a silly old song trigger tears from a place deep down inside. It can make you cry in a way that is not sad and not laughing but of profound purpose and meaning.

I recently read an article that said that one of the drivers for frequent job changes among millennials is a need for real purpose and meaning. Financial ROI (return on investment) is no longer enough to keep them satisfied and challenged in their work. They feel a strong pull toward finding something big enough to be worth their energy and passion.

What does this mean for your life?

Do not live just for yourself. Live for things bigger than yourself.It is not just the military. It is anything that has deep purpose and meaning for you. What will you treasure at the end of your life? What will you commit yourself to that is so much more than just living for you?

For me it is a bunch of things. 

I am forever proud to have been a part of the Navy. 

I am a father and together with my wife, I am committed to the growth and success of my daughters.

I am proud to have joined the ranks of healthcare professionals as a physician. This is not an isolated thing but is large club that binds us together in shared purpose and experiences. Regardless of what anyone might think, the vast majority of physicians were drawn to healthcare by a desire to use their intelligence and skills for real good.

I have committed myself to making healthcare better in my region. Within heart failure I would like to think that I am not only helping in the care of individual patients with heart failure. While that is excellent in and of itself, there is more. I also want to be a part of having improved the care in my organization. I also dream that I could improve the care beyond this. I want to improve things for an entire region. By example and energy and in whatever way I can, I want to think that patients will get better care by the time I am finished than when I started. That is a huge goal and makes me inspired just to think of it. I just wish there was a song that I could hum as I write this!

On a deeper level, as I have mentioned, I am also a man of faith. 

I believe in an Almighty Creator who has made us in His image and who allows us to be a part of His redemptive plan for His creation. The world is a fractured place. Everything is not as it is supposed to be. That is obvious. But I have a belief in a God who is executing a plan to repair it all. And I believe that He allows us to be a part of it.

That is a very deep level of belonging. 

Suddenly I belong to thousands of years of people who have lived by faith. There are people who have lived and died, many as martyrs, for standing up for what is right. They have opposed tyrants and evil throughout generations. And I am, by an incredible gift of God’s grace, even linked to the sufferings of Christ. This is a deep mystery, but I am linked even to Him. I am, by the purpose and plan of God, linked to a plan to redeem and remake the world into the place that it was meant to be. 

To be committed to such deep purposes is a big part of what it means to be truly human!

What are you living for? What is there that is greater than yourself?

“Anchors aweigh, my boys, anchors aweigh!”

And that is how a little prank flipped back on me and taught me a big lesson about what it means to be a human being.

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Our Lives as Well Written Novels

”While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.”

In this Christmas holiday season we often read or hear read the story of the nativity. It is a grand and humble story. It warms our hearts. In this season of the nativity, I hope you will enjoy a reflection on my thinking on life.

As is usual in this blog, I honestly and openly reflect my thinking. Not everyone will agree with me. That is ok. But there is richness in the dialogue and how we all can learn from each other. These are the thoughts that fill my heart and mind this holiday season.

I enjoy a good novel.

In it there are of course some important elements. The characters and how they are developed is very important. They can’t be one dimensional. They must have some complexity. The narrative must flow well.

But above all there must be a plot. The plot cannot be too obvious. It has to develop and flow over time. It weaves in and out of the characters lives and we go on a journey of discovery as we read. If it is too obvious we will lose interest in the book. If there is no plot we end up wholly unsatisfied. But the masterful book is one in which we wonder what is going on. We are eager to find some purpose or meaning and how things can or might tie in.

The most excellent novels have elements that you see but perhaps don’t even really notice and then later they tie in with remarkable and profound meaning. They hit you and you are suddenly amazed at their significance. It all starts folding together and it makes sense. The pages that have gone before this point become cherished friends. You love them and are so glad you got to know them because now you know how important and how significant they were to what was really going on the whole time.

I like to think my life has been a great novel. It thrills me to see events that at the time didn’t seem to mean a lot and how they have come back years later to be of profound significance. There were thrilling times. There were slower times that were spent on developing the main character in the novel. But now I see how important those times were and even the mundane parts of the story now jump out as being ever so important.

Why does this matter?

What is reality? Are our lives meaningful? Are they the product of a skilled author who profoundly knows in advance what elements must be weaved in and out of our lives? Is our story being created for us? Will we be able to look back and read through it and appreciate it? Will we even love some of the passages for how profound they may seem in retrospect?

Or are our lives just happenstance? Do we stumble along doing the best that we can as we scribble on the pad of paper kind of inventing things as we go? Is it like the game where each person adds a line onto the story as we go around the room. These stories can be funny as each person goes up and down different tangents. But these stories are not elegant. They usually leave you unsatisfied. They are like a sweet that you munch on. It may taste good for awhile but doesn’t really leave you satisfied. They are not the full meal with all of its content that leaves you satisfied and happy at the end.

I have strong beliefs in this regard. There is no question in my mind which is reality.

I have seen it played out already. The story has been well written so far. It has so much more depth to the story than I would have added if I had written it myself. I think I would have written an obvious story without the subtleties that I now see and appreciate. I probably would have left out some things unless it made me look better or more dramatic. But mostly – I just would have written a much more dry and direct story.

The beginnings were humble. The plotline took time to develop. The first portion spent a lot of time developing the many characters and personalities. There were a lot of mundane details that I didn’t really appreciate at the time. But now I see how much color and realism and depth they added to the story. In retrospect I wouldn’t change them. I also love to go back and reread some of the parts. Some of the parts are painful. I reread them because I need to. They are important. Some are fun or funny. I tend to skip over some of the more embarrassing parts. I probably would love to cut those pages out but the author felt that they were necessary.

What am I trying to say?

There is purpose and meaning to all of our lives. It is startling and amazing and beautiful. It is more than what you could even imagine. I honestly believe that one of the joys of heaven will be to look back and see the incredible meaning behind it all. Like the sweet taste when you read the last page of a treasured book will be the joy of realizing that God was in charge the entire time. In spite of the difficult or stubborn characters in the book He was able to carry through an amazing story and weave it all together.

God is there. He is the author. He dreamed up who you would be, was there when you were conceived and was there as you grew in your mother’s womb. Your birth was not a surprise to Him. He has loved you before you could even know what love was. He was watching and cheering for you when you made good choices and perhaps wincing a bit as you made bad choices. He was pulling things together and calling to you with the goal that you would come to Him so that He could heal you and perfect you. You are His creation. You were made by Him and for Him and so that you could enjoy Him and He could enjoy you.

“God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life.” This is one of the 4 spiritual laws that were popular in the 70s. It was an appeal to help people realize that He is a loving and personal God.

Please do not misunderstand. The story that He is writing for your – or His “wonderful plan” – is not a simple one. It is not a perfect plan because you and the whole world are part of a fallen creation. It is part tragedy. It is drama. There is comedy at times also. It is mostly a redemptive story. Oh – and by the way – you are NOT the protagonist. You are really not even the main character. Truth be told – if you had the ability to read and grasp the entire novel – you would see that you are but one character in a much grander redemptive story that pulls multiple elements together with the ultimate goal of declaring the glory of God.

It is not health and wealth. While the story may have moments of beauty there are a lot of times that it is not pretty. As in most profound novels there are parts of it that are truly painful and tragic. We cannot nor should we trivialize or try to neatly explain those away. The story is gritty and real. It has deep flaws in many of the characters and fractures in many of the events. Parts that could be just perfect are fractured or flawed by the fallen circumstances and characters that make up that chapter. The glory and the beauty comes in how the protagonist – both as the narrator and author – but also as one of the characters in the story – pulls it all together throughout the story and in the end.

God is there.
He created you.
He knows you and loves you.
You are fallen and flawed.
But God is much greater and amazingly He can pull you just as you are through a story – a redemptive story – and bring you to Him. There He can perfect you. And someday – we can sit before Him and in great wonder and love hear the author explain it all so clearly that our hearts will overflow.

That is the world.
It is God’s world.
Please, please, please – don’t miss seeing it!
It happens to be one of my favorite books and I deeply hope you can appreciate it with me.

Can you indeed speculate and dream with me for a moment?

Can you think that your life may indeed be a well written novel? What might have to now looked like scribbles or fragmented story lines, might actually be intricately woven together soon to make wonderful and logical sense. It is not a perfect story. Any good novel does not have perfect characters and perfect actions. There are always twists and turns.

But, as a child on Christmas Eve, can you engage in wonder in the thought that there might indeed be an author for the story that is your life? Can you let the Christmas lights reflect off of your rosy cheeks and glisten in your eyes. Could you look for the author and the story that He is writing as you turn the next pages of your life into the coming year?