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Becoming an Expert

It was about 5 am when the call came in. We were being called to assist a volunteer fire and ambulance team in a neighboring area. There was a serious accident on the interstate, and they were asking for our assistance.

I was young. I was only about 20 years of age. My partner that night was Greg. He was a year younger than me. 

In High School I had gone to the community college at night and gotten my Emergency Medical Technician (EMT) training. I then started shadowing and then became an employee of Van Buren Emergency Medical Services (VBEMS). Through college I worked weekends and summers as an EMT on the ambulance. I learned a lot going through that. It was exciting. The adrenaline rush was a big draw. Early on I had to learn how to be able to focus, remain calm and do my job. I am thankful to those who helped mentor me in that role. John was a big teddy bear and just so kind so that I felt welcomed. Scott corrected me after one call where in my nervousness I kept saying, “ok” over and over and over again. Tom told funny stories from when he was young and inexperienced. I can still picture some of the scenes that he would describe in his stories. I can hear his pretend gravelly voice, “It was bad! Real bad!” When he froze on the scene and another rescuer grabbed him, “Use your skills boy! Use your skills!” “Remember the ABCs!” was the punch line of the story. You have specific training. Do not freak out. Go back to what you were trained to do and just do it.

Greg was my partner that evening. In the days when most ambulances were “basic EMT”, VBEMS was in a transition through “Specialist” (able to start IVs and put in endotracheal tubes) to “Advanced” (paramedic trained and able to give medicines, defibrillate, etc.)  Because we were “Specialist” and had a crash rescue service we were called that morning when the basic volunteer ambulance team thought they were in over their heads. It was the first time they had called us for help since our company had gone specialist.

When we arrived on the scene, we saw a semi-truck and trailer in the median and flipped on its side. It was early morning. It was about 40 degrees outside and there was a cold drizzle coming down. The usual array of flashing lights from the fire truck, the volunteers’ cars and the police were lighting up the scene. 

Greg and I walked up to the truck and the oddest thing happened.  

The volunteer rescue workers looked at us, backed away, and said, “Here you go!” They weren’t just asking for our help. They were abdicating to us. I thought we were going to put in an IV and give them some help. They were quite happy to have us be completely in charge.  We were young! Men twice our age were deferring to us and I didn’t really like it very well. 

Inside the cab of the truck the driver was pinned in. The floor of the truck had oddly folded up around his legs pinning them in place between folds of sheet metal. Something electrical was shorting out and every so often he would scream in pain as he would get shocked by the wires. Greg went to work on starting an IV. That meant I was left with the job of “crash rescue.”

I had been trained on crash rescue. I had participated in several training sessions.  Those were really cool. The instructors would get a bunch of old cars from a junk yard. We would take the “Jaws of Life” and all the other tools and we would cut the cars to pieces as we practiced the rescue techniques. 

  • Pop the hood and cut the battery cable to prevent electrical shorts and potential fires.
  • Pop off the doors with the Jaws of Life. 
  • Remove the windshield.
  • Cut the A-posts with the Jaws. 
  • Crease the roof at the back of the car with the Jaws.
  • Flip the whole roof back.
  • Pull the steering column up to pull the dash off of the patient (using a come-along winch).

That was the standard routine in those days. I had practiced it numerous times in classes and had done it many times on accident scenes. But this routine was for a car. There were no practice sessions for a semi-truck with a folded-up floor. Everything was foreign. It was hard to know where to start.

We had a “crash rescue” team. We had put out the call for “East County Rescue” but it was a voluntary team. And none of our partners had responded. 


I was in charge. I was young. I had never dealt with anything like this. I had a dozen people staring at me. I had a patient yelling out in pain. And suddenly I was in charge. 

Suddenly I was “the expert.”

I took on the role. I wasn’t going to do this alone however. I took charge and started talking to the fireman who were there. I told them the first thing they needed to do was to try to find the battery or at least a battery cable. We needed to cut the electrical power to the truck. I told them that was their job. 

Next, I asked them what ideas they had. They had been on scene for quite a while before they called us. What had they tried to get him out of the truck? They had pulled the windshield, so we at least had access to the patient. Did any of them have any ideas for how we could get him free? 

Nope.

Inside the truck there was no room to work. The floor was such a folded-up mess that I could barely get a hand around his custom trucking seat and his legs to get to the floor. I couldn’t get any tools in the limited space to bend the metal away that was pinching and trapping his legs in place.

I looked on the other side of the truck (the side that should have been facing the ground). Up inside I could see the bolts that held his seat in place. They were hard to get to, but I could reach them. I called for an air chisel. I started chiseling away at each of the bolts. It was not easy. 

This next moment has been etched in my memory forever.

It was cold. I was wet. I was tired. It was now about 6 am. My shift ended at 6 am. My arms ached from working with them above my head reaching far inside.  The weight of the responsibility for this rescue was heavy on me. All I really wanted to be was in a warm bed somewhere. I was starting to feel a little bit sorry for myself. Why was I doing this job? How did they expect me to do this when I had never been trained for this situation? I wanted to give up. 

But I didn’t have a choice. The victim needed me to keep working. I knew it. I got over my mini “pity party” and reached further in to cut the next bolt. 

One by one I got all of the bolts off. Once I did so the firemen were able to pull the seat out from underneath him. This opened up visibility to the floor. It was still too small of a space for the jaws. But we could use the hand pumped hydraulic tools (porta power). With these we were able to pry the folds in the sheet metal apart. When we had done this his legs came free. Our patient was free of the truck. 

Greg and I were then able to go back to “standard work”. 

  • Secondary survey for other injuries. 
  • Spinal precautions: Put on the cervical collar. Restrain him on the back board. 
  • Load him into the ambulance. 
  • Closely monitor him and bring him to the hospital.

It was around 7:30 or 8 am when we got to the hospital. Our relief team was there. We cleaned the rig and cot and got it ready for the next call. 

Surprisingly, our patient wasn’t badly hurt. He had burns on his legs from shorted wires. He had bruises. But as it turned out, he was treated and released from the Emergency Department about the same time as we finished cleaning up!

It is a fun story. It happened over 30 years ago but I can remember it like it was yesterday. But it is more than a fun story. 

It was my first taste of what it means to be an expert.  

As I went through medical school, I started to gain a different perspective on what I had been doing on the ambulance. A lot of what we did on the ambulance was “algorithmic thinking.” That is – to be taught a certain series of steps and to rigidly apply those over and over again. There is nothing wrong with having algorithms. It is good to use the prior knowledge processed by smart minds to figure out the “best” way to do something. But there was a strange rigidity that isn’t always good. I started to become discontent with some of the “after the call” arguments. Did everyone perfectly follow the steps? There would be petty disagreements about which steps we were supposed to have followed in each circumstance. Was a certain situation “black” or “white”? I was beginning to see that there were very subtle shades of “gray”. A soft very light gray doesn’t fit very well into an algorithm. 

Through the years I have been forced to learn what it means to be an expert. Frankly, none of us really like it. Algorithms are safe and comfortable. It is a lot nicer to have clear data to tell us what to do. But often the data is just not there. In those moments you have to put on the uniform of the “expert.” You have to be willing and able to apply “expert opinion” to figure out what to do.

All of the lessons were there on that cold and wet morning so many years ago:

  1. Know all of the basics.Have them nailed down. You can’t be an expert until you firmly know the usual.
  2. Know the principles:Don’t just know the basics of what to do. Don’t just know the algorithms. You must know whyyou are supposed to do them. You must understand the principles that drove the development of the algorithms. In naval aviation they taught us this. We had to memorize all the emergency procedures. But we also had to learn all the airplane’s “systems” so that we could troubleshoot anything that didn’t fit in the lines of the emergency procedures.
  3. Can an algorithm work? Assess the situation and see if it is truly black or white or what shades of gray are present. Is there an evidence-based strategy you can apply? Or does it not completely apply? Do you need to deviate slightly from or adapt the algorithm?
  4. Accept and acknowledge complexity.Acknowledge it when the situation is truly unusual. Then go back to the underlying principles to figure out what options you have. Use your brain. Look at the entire situation. Think of options and risks vs benefits of each of them. The first step is often to declare it an “expert opinion” situation. Then you have to analyze and think.
  5. Seek broad input.Being an expert does not mean that you function alone. Get the input from everyone who is there. Someone might have a better idea than you. Someone might have dealt with or seen a similar situation. Don’t be shy about getting as much input as you can. This doesn’t mean that it is a democracy. You are not going to put up the decision making to a vote. But you are also humble enough to take input from anyone and everyone. It might a nurse or a technician. It might even be the patient. Being an expert does not mean that you “go it alone.” 
  6. Just do your best.Being an expert means that you often have to function in areas where there is no data to tell you exactly what to do. This can be at times paralyzing. I have frequently relived that one moment where I wanted to walk away from the bottom of that truck. I wanted to go find a warm and dry place to lay down and give up. But I was “the expert” that morning. The patient needed me to not give up. I had to keep pushing even if the answers were not clear. Life is not always easy. Sometimes you just have to do your best.

I don’t ever want to relive that morning under the truck. It was cold and wet and kind of overwhelming. But I did my best. We got our patient free. I am proud that quiet little young me took charge. I didn’t do it alone. I pushed and pulled the firemen to give me ideas and help me. I functioned outside of the box. I continued to push forward and work even when it was hard.  I didn’t give up. I functioned in the uncomfortable space where the situation required us to come up with new solutions. And I learned. I learned a lot.

How about you? Are there times and places when you are or should be the “expert?” It can be an uncomfortable space to be.

  • Remember your training and knowledge.
  • Recognize when the situation is complex and requires you to be an expert.
  • Use your knowledge and skills to work through options and answers.
  • Humbly ask for and accept input from others.
  • Be bold enough to accept responsibility. [Do your best.
  • Learn from your experience.
  • Years later write a fun blog post about it!

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Intolerance, The Church Lady, and a True Definition of Tolerance

The image is a common one. It is funny to laugh at the “church lady” on Saturday Night Live. “Well, isn’t that special!”  “How convenient!” 

It is much less funny to see it in reality. The image is of a “religious” person who is self-righteous, judgmental and condemning of everyone around them. It may look funny as a caricature, but the reality is disturbing and shameful. It also reflects the unfortunate reality that there is some truth that made this character popular. But the image is also a “straw man” argument that is used by many to deny the reality of thousands of true, caring, and sincere Christian believers.

I think the opposite is actually true.  I think my Christian faith makes tolerance much easier for me than it may be for others.

Many will think that is paradoxical. Please bear with me while I explain.

I do not expect everyone to agree with me. I do not expect everyone to make the same life choices that I do. In fact, I have gotten quite used to it. I am not surprised when others think or choose to live differently than me.

Just as importantly, I hope and truly want everyone to let me believe, think and live as my conscience dictates. It would be a deep crime against me if you were to insist on forcing me to only adopt your thinking. We all know the fights that have ensued through the centuries of mankind when one side or the other has tried to do this. And it never really works. You don’t change how people think by forcing them to think your way.

We are always going to think differently from others. The only answer that humans have worked out that seems to work is to allow freedom of thought and conscience. I expect you to give it to me. It is only reasonable that I should expect myself to give it to you.

This is of course with the caveat as long as we are not causing harm to others. There is a component of societal norms and laws that we know we have to have in place. And sometimes debate is necessary to figure out where those lines fall. It is not surprising that there will need to be some work and struggle to figure out those limits within a pluralistic society. It is of course not a perfect world. It seems the best answer we have come up with is to debate and then legislate the boundaries. Beyond that then we have decided to embrace liberty and freedom for individual thought and behavior.

And so, it is easier for me to be tolerant than people might think. I do not expect everyone to think like me. They often do not.  I do not expect everyone to live like me. They often do not.

I find then that with patients it is far easier to not be surprised. Patients might make all sorts of lifestyle choices. I hesitate to mention them here because this blog posting is not about debating whether certain specific choices are right or wrong. That is not the point. The point is about my ability to treat everyone with appropriate care and respect even if their personal choices disagree with my own.

This does not mean that I must agree with their choices. That is where many people get confused. There is a big difference between tolerance and agreement. We talk about living in a pluralistic society. This means that our society is based on letting us live peacefully side by side even though we may disagree on certain things. I do not have to agree with your thinking or your lifestyle. But I must respect your rights to have your thoughts and to live your lifestyle. I must be mature enough to be willing to accept that it is “ok” for us to “agree to disagree.” 

If you have strongly held beliefs, you will frequently find that you do not agree with people. The only alternative is to be a diluted milk toast with nothing strong or characteristic about you. You will have taken on being less of a human. You will have sacrificed a lot of the flavor and wonder of being a human. Please do not do this.

You should feel free to strongly believe, to strongly feel, and to live according to your conscience. You and I are then inevitably going to disagree. I am sorry about this. It is a little bit frightening to live this way, but it is much more exciting. It is much more real.

But please, let us tolerate each other. Would you be willing to let me follow my conscience as you follow your conscience? And in some moments, we might even be mature enough to dialogue about our differences and we might even learn from each other. We might help each other to grow. But please let us not insist that we must become each other. I may be right, and you may choose to accept some of my thinking. I may be wrong, and I pray for the maturity and the grace to be able to see this and accept it as it comes.

And this is where the surprise may come to many of you. 

Many of us with deeply held beliefs as Christians find tolerance much easier than others would ever understand. We silently tolerate lifestyle choices in those around us of substance use or abuse, sexual license, profanity, etc as a routine part of life in our world. These are choices that would break our consciences if we were to make them for ourselves. But for many around us who we consider friends, these things on a small scale are a routine part of their lives. We have learned the skill of remaining friends and yet not insisting that you think or live the same as us. 

When the more extreme examples come, it is easy to assume that we would of course object and adopt intolerance. But these are differences only of magnitude. The same skills that we have acquired throughout our lives of living, working, and being friends with people who make different choices then our own, makes tolerance much easier. 

I can take a sexual history and not be shocked anymore. When I discover that my female patient is biologically a male patient it is a surprise but does not mean that I will in any way not treat them with dignity and respect. I would personally not adopt that lifestyle. But I also would not adopt the lifestyle of the sexually promiscuous heterosexual patient that came before them. For some reason the promiscuous heterosexual patient seems more acceptable in our society.  But both are different than me. Both are my patients, and both are best treated with dignity and respect. 

I hope and expect to be treated with dignity and respect from you in spite of our differences. So also, I expect myself to treat you or my patients the same way.

This does not mean that intolerance does not exist. It is a big problem. But it comes from an expectation that everyone else must think and act like me. If I assume that everyone in the world thinks like me, I will struggle with intolerance. The problem comes when I view the world in rigid lines that are black and white. It is when I assume that there is a majority of “us” who are normal. In that scenario I can write off or reject anyone who does not neatly fit within “our” lines. But the world is so much more complex than that. With every other person in this world I will find areas where we will agree. It is also very likely that I will find areas where we will disagree.

This also does not mean that I can abdicate my responsibility when I see my friends or patients harming themselves or others. If I have a patient who continues to smoke, it is my duty to explain to them the harm they are bringing on themselves. But they often are surprised when I talk to them with an attitude of respect. I have found it does little good to scold them like little children. Instead I ask them to weigh out in their minds why they are choosing to harm their bodies. What is their motivation? I then can tell them that we won’t get anywhere until they are personally motivated to change. It really is their decision. This is inherently a different discussion than to bring in the “church lady” attitude and wave my finger at them.

What does this all mean?

  • I do not have to agree with you.  We can be ok with that.
  • Please treat me with tolerance when we do not agree. Please do not force me or expect me to mimic you. I cannot do it and should not do it.
  • I promise to try to treat you with the same degree of tolerance and respect.
  • Some days we might be bold enough to talk about our differences and learn from each other.
  • Most days we should learn to live and work and play together in peace in this imperfect world in which we live.