I am learning the torture of this.
I am so eager to get back to my life and the fatigue is robbing me of it.
As I am trying to return to work this is the key limiting factor. I have not been able to do much yet because of it.
Cancer related fatigue (CRF) is very common. It is experienced by >80% of patients receiving outpatient treatment for cancer and is graded as severe in >45% of patients.[1]
The causes are not well understood. The cancer itself may have neurohormonal and inflammatory triggers. The treatments (both radiation and chemotherapy) are well known to cause the fatigue. Depending on the treatments the severity and timing can be quite variable. But it is very common.
Below is something I wrote a month or so ago as I was learning about this fatigue. I hope you will find it an interesting read. At least it might help you to understand what others are going through when they say they have CRF.
For now for me it means:
- Reduced expectations
- Focusing my energy
- Resting throughout the day
- Trying to get an exercise program restarted in spite of the fatigue
- Hoping that it will improve as I get further away from my radiation therapy.
Here is what I wrote several weeks ago:
Fatigue vs Drowsiness
It is 5:53 AM and I am tired but not drowsy.
For the first time in my life I am experiencing the difference between fatigue and drowsiness.
I am one of those annoying people who could always sleep. I could fall asleep on demand any place and any time. Sounding like a Dr. Seuss book, “I could sleep on a plane, I could sleep in a car, I could sleep on a train, I could sleep on a star!”
And then I ended up on this medical leave. Suddenly I could go to bed on time and didn’t have to get up early in the morning. Years of sleep deprivation were gradually washed out of my brain. In its place was put fatigue as the result of a laparotomy (surgical incision on the abdomen) and surgical resection followed by radiation and chemo.
What is the difference. Well at 6:01 in the morning I can tell you:
| Drowsiness | Fatigue |
| · Sleep is seductive, sounds wonderful. | · You want to rest but not sure if you want or need to sleep. |
| · Sleep feels like a warm blanket wrapped around you, or a satisfying warm meal. It is SO nice, if only you could indulge in it. | · You feel like you need to breathe hard because your body needs something to restore itself to normalcy. |
| · You can push through it but wish you didn’t have to. | · You feel weak and at times even chilled and eventually know that you cannot and should not push through it. |
| · Sleep comes over you quickly and without effort. | · Sleep comes slowly and you have to use your tricks (think silly or nonsensical thoughts, or imagine you are other places or in other times, to shut down your brain). |
| · You wish and wish for more sleep. | · You wish for more energy and stamina. |
| · Caffeine is your friend. | · Caffeine is your enemy. |
| · A 20 minute nap can do wonders. | · A 2 hour nap can really help. |
| · Do I really have to get up? Perhaps just one more click of the snooze alarm? | · I might as well get up. It really is too early. Maybe I should try to go back to sleep for a few more minutes? |
| · To experience how this feels there are a couple of techniques: (a) Eat a large Thanksgiving meal and then settle down on the sofa. Pull a fleece blanket over you. Pretend to watch a television show. (b) Eat a large lunch on a warm afternoon. Get in your car and try to drive for several hours without stopping. | · To experience how this feels: Drink a bunch of caffeine late in the afternoon or early evening. I recommend MadCap coffee for this experiment. They have a lot of caffeine but also are incredibly tasty! Anyhow – drink a bunch of caffeine and then when your heart is racing go lay down and try to sleep. You will feel the sense of needing to breath deeply, mind racing around and uncomfortable feeling of fatigue. |
Can I make some purpose or meaning out of this post? I am not sure. I guess I write it because it is what was on my mind as I tried to nap yesterday afternoon and as I tried to go to sleep last night and as I woke up this morning. I write it because I know that both sides are what so many people experience. Maybe by being eloquent (I hope) I can somehow help someone to not feel alone? Maybe I can help people to feel more normal?
Do I have any advice? Well as someone who was previously frequently drowsy I can suggest a few things. One of our beloved colleagues came back after retirement and walked through the ICU. He looked amazing! He looked 10 years younger. He was full and healthy and really alive. He explained how we all have absolutely no idea how sleep deprived we all are. He encouraged us to work on getting more caught up on our sleep.
- Go to bed. I waste SO much time at night “unwinding.” I would be better to put down my computer or phone, or turn off the stupid television program and go to bed. (Van – I still remember from medical school when you kept a journal of how you spent your time and you saw how much time you wasted during the day!)
- Set minimum standards and work toward those. (I used to say 5 hours. That was ridiculous. Then I put it at 6 hours. Also not good. I think 7 hours for me…)
- Get caught up when you can.
- Work is going to be there again in the morning. Go to bed.
In regards to fatigue – I am still trying to figure this one out. I am hoping that time is my friend and that it will improve. Setting realistic expectations makes sense. Resting when I am tired makes sense also.
[1]J Natl Compr Canc Netw. 2015 August ; 13(8): 1012–1039.
5 replies on “Cancer Related Fatigue”
Time is your friend and it will improve- but sorry to tell you that when I was 48 and had breast cancer, it took a year or so before I felt back to “normal”. I had CRF but also “Chemo brain”. I don’t know if it’s a medical term, although a lot of people use it- but i had trouble with my memory for a long time! (Now I have trouble again- but I think it’s also because I’m 70!!!)
It is our prayer that God will give you feet for the path that you are on and will continue to give you healing! Lots of love to your family!!
Thanks for the feedback. It is one thing to hear about it but another to live it! Thanks for the encouragement!
The difference between drowsiness and fatigue is something I know all too well, having had MS and thyroid inefficiencies. Personally, I think fatigue is sometimes impossible to get by. It kind of is an invasion of the pores. My suggestion is an entire day in bed with a lot of falling asleep. You juxtaposed the two very well. It’s just that drowsiness will be attenuated by taking a nap where fatigue goes on and on. I recommend a lot as in a tremendous lot of sleeping and then a shot of not booze but cold air–which may do the trick at least temporarily to take you out of the pits of fatigue. I hope it does.
Helpful feedback and advice! Thanks!
Mike
You are so eloquent! So many wonderful talents. Wish you strength, health and increased stamina.
Bonnie